Time Goes By....So S L O W L Y

Time is moving so slow I can't stand it. I still didn't get the call for the second interview. My dad says the job is as good as mine. I really hope that's true. As soon as I get that job, I'm breaking out like a rash. I can't waaaiiiit. I'm so impatient. It's definetely one of my very worst traits. I'm sleepy. I've been imagining plans for how I'll decorate my apartment and who I'll invite to my housewarming. It makes me miss him a little bit. I wish things could have been different between us. I still wish he loved me. But, that's life. All your wishes can't come true or life would be perfect and there would be nothing to learn. Maybe my feelings are right and this isn't the end. One day, maybe he and I will be "us". For now, I can't deal with feeling neglected by him. I can't deal with feeling neglected by anyone. It hurts and I don't have to deal with it. So I won't. Anyway, I'm excited for the future and it's taking too long to get here. I found some super cool combat boots. I have half the money for it, I'll have to scrape up the rest later. Hopefully, I get it before school starts and I can wear them with high waisted denim shorts and my College Workshop tee. Omg, that would be sooo cute. With my sunglasses earrings and camera necklace. Awesome. I want to find a cool ring too. I also want a varsity jacket and high waisted leggings. And a pullover sweater, which I'll wear with and oversized button-down, leggings, and nerdy glasses. With my vintage-y oxfords. Super cute. I have staples now. I just need more. My wardrobe isn't cohesive because of my lack of staple pieces. I have to change that. I'm thinking of coloring my hair too. I need some Manic! I also need to get my curling iron from my grandma. I'm so tired. Why am I still awake? Oh yeah, because I hate the person I've been forced to share a room with my whole life so I'm on the stupid uncomfortable couch. I can't wait to get away from her forever. Bleh. That job will bring me so much closer to hat!!!! Please, oh please let me get that job!!!!! PLEASE!