OMG! AWESOMENESS!

This year is going to be BEYOND awesome. I'm in the school musical as one of the lead roles and I get to kiss a guy that I thought was really cute when I first saw him. Well, I still think he's cute. I'm a little nervous that we don't have chemistry, then again, we don't really know each other and we have to kiss, so itl be awkward at first. I'm trying not to get carried away, but as you know, that's reeeaaally hard for me :x. Anyway, I'm EXTREMELY EXCITED!!! I LOVE my schedule, I LOVE the musical we're doing, and I LOVE the way this way this year is starting off. I'm also in the Advanced Choir, which means I get to go to Six Flags(again). I hope that I have fun. I'll probably bring my camera and save up some cash for yummy treats :D. I'm gonna dye my hair dark purple tomorrow. I want it to be really dark so that it looks black until you see it in the light. I guess that's it then. I don't have any complaints. Not yet anyway.

FUCK THIS SHIT!!!

And I mean it this time. He's a fucking dirty slut. He can kiss my muthafuckin ass. I don't deserve to be treated the way he treats me. So I deleted him for the last fucking time. Fuck him. And this time, I mean that shit. I'm so done with this shit. I don't deserve it and I don't have to deal with it. It's not worth my time or it energy. Right about now, I feel like giving up on guys. They're obviously not interested in me and the ones that I've wasted my time with have ruined it for me. So, I give up. Fuck this shit. It sucks and isn't worth the trouble it causes. I wish for once someone would change how I feel. I wish someone would make me believe that it's not all bad and all this frustration and anger was worth something. I just want to take back the time I wasted. And the blissful ignorance I once had. I just want to be loved. I just want to feel like I'm not ugly. I feel ugly and worthless. I feel like no one will ever find me attractive or love me. No one will ever think I'm worth the trouble. I give up. What's the point? I think I'm great so fuck what everyone else thinks. I'm the muthafuckin shit and I love myself. That's all I fucking need.