I know just what to say.

The title is a big fat lie. I never know what to say. Ironic huh? I talk so much yet most of the time I have no clue how to formulate helpful coherent sentences until AFTER the conversation has been over for a long time. It's sad. Just this morning I made an entire speech to say to a couple of jerks who pissed me off...last summer. I wish I were making this up. Unfortunately, I am that pathetic. If only it took me much less time to come up with clever witty things. I started writing this blog at 10:30am. It is now 1:58pm. I mean, I'm out doing stuff. It's not like I'm just sitting around. Well, now it's 2:52 and I'm off to watch Glee. Thnx for readin, stay FAB!:)

It's not fair

It feels like everywhere I turn there's a couple. It's sickening. I'm just being a huge hater because I'm single and hating it but I can't help but feel a little down when I see a couple making out and I'm all by myself. Getting a boyfriend is on the very bottom of my priority list, trust me. But I still feel a bit sad when I see the dates of when couples started dating on status messages, scribbled on desks and bathroom stalls. It still stings a bit when I see my crush holding hands with his pretty girlfriend. I try to be tough as nails but I'm totally not. It doesn't help to see hot guys every day either. Guys don't give me a second look which makes me feel a little invalid. I guess there's a good reason I'm unattached. I hope there is anyway. Well, I probably have better things to do, so I'm gonna try to find out what exactly that is. Thnx for reading, stay FAB!:)
-L.H. ♥

Tainted Love

I realized today that the Boy Formerly Known As Wow(BFKAW) totally turned me off to love. I somehow became more cynical and pessimistic simply by talking to him. He made me hate love. I didn't think that was possible but it is. I was so scared I was gonna get crushed that I became as anti-love as him. I'm never gonna let that happen again. I love to love(I might of mentioned that). I love love. I love romance. He made me believe that all guys were like him. When I think of it now, he sucked. He won't ever change. I was so desperate to love that I was willing to stop believing in it. I'm done with that. You should be proud of me. I am. I'm gonna find someone loyal reader(I know you're out there, whether you're willing to admit it or not) I'm destined for big things. I can feel it. And I'm going to have the love I deserve. I don't mind waiting. It'll be hard and the wait will depress the shit out of me, but I know it'll be worth it. Love is always worth it. Don't lose faith in love loyal reader. Someone loves you. If you don't believe that, then believe I love you. I mean that. Maybe I sound crazy, but if you're willing to read my psycho thoughts, you deserve to be loved. Haha. Ok, well I just thought I'd share my epiphany. Thnx for reading and stay FAB:)
-L.H. ♥

[p.s. I also realized that he was a filthy whore and was teling me the same things he was other girls which of course, makes me feel like shit. But I'm over it... I think.]

Careers!

I've wanted to be a lot of different things since I was little. What I really wanted to be for a loong time was a veterinarian. I love animals and wanted to help them, but then I found out that you sometimes have to put them down and I can't handle that. Plus I suck at science. I've also wanted to be a meteorologist, astronaut, actress, fashion designer and model. I've changed my mind a bunch of times and I'll probably change it again but right at this moment, I want to be a photographer, director, and nightclub owner. I REALLY want to go to Eugene Lang College or one of the New Schools. I'm not getting my hopes up though. I wouldn't mind going to a school for film or business though. I think what I really want to be is famous. I want fame, friends, money, love, and a fabulous apartment. I want to live among fabulous people and have fun all the time. I want my job to be fun and I want to interact with open minded fabulous people. I don't know if you noticed, but I'm obsessed with fabulous. I don't exactly hide it. This is totally unrelated but I'm in desperate need of make-up and nail polish. Well, I can't keep my eyes open to I'm going to sleep. Thnx for reading, stay FAB!:)
L.H. ♥

♥ _ ♥

I'm in a surprisingly good mood today. Probably because last night(or this morning, it was like 2am) I watched Were The World Mine for the first time. I had been trying to watch it for the longest and finally caught it. I'm not going to summarize the whole movie, but it was beautiful! So today, right now anyway, I feel bubbly and light and loving. The movie was just so magical and Shakespearean(literally). It should win some sort of award. You should totally watch it. Well, I'm watching The Birdcage, but I'll post soon! Thnx for reading, stay FAB!:)
-L.H. ♥

Lookie Look!

I complain A LOT I hope that doesn't show on this blog because I try to be as nice and pleasant and positive.. On this on at least. But I just made a new blog dedicated to my rants. A lot of things piss me off sooo I'm making a blog strictly for rants. Check it out if you want, comment if you totes agree. Off to rant, thnx for reading stay FAB:)
-L.H. ♥

GAYing out!

I'm all about Elton John, Cher, Madonna, Lady Gaga, Little Boots, and La
roux right now. I'm calling it Gaga for Gaga Month. Only because I'm
listening to mostly Lady Gaga. She's soo fabulous. I'm working extra
hard to let out my inner fabulocity. I'm letting it out more but my
overall image totally doesn't match how I am on the inside. I have the
body glitter, the sequins, and the bright colors, but I definitely need
tons of work. Mostly in the wardrobe department(as I've repeated over
and over). I feel like all I'm talking about is how I want to change up
everything, but that's all I can think of. I want so badly to be happier
and truly be MYself. I don't feel like I'm ever truly who I want to be.
Well, I had a long/exciting/awesome/crappy day(I won't go into it) and
I'm really tired. Plus, my tongue, throat and ear hurt like hell so I'm
going to bed. Thnx for reading and stay FAB! :)
-L.H. ♥

P.S who's going to see Sex&the City2? I know I am!!! XD
P.S.S I am like in LOVE with Butch Walker. His music rawks and he's uber
hawt :]

Misery

Life always has a way of making me totally miserable. Hoping, wishing,
and believing as hard as I can just doesn't seem to work for me. I look
forward to lemonade, but life doesn't provide the sugar and water, or
the means to get it. It only gives sour, rotting lemons that I can't do
anything with. Clearly, I'm not having a good day. I should be having
tons of fun, instead I'm stuck someplace I don't want to be. I have no
say in where I can go or what I can do. I've been planning to go
somewhere for like three weeks and the day before I was all set to go, I
was forced somewhere else. I'm basically I prisoner in my own life. It
sucks but it could be worse. I don't even want to think about the worse
possible scenarios. I've never really been good at making the best of a
bad situation, but I'm good at pretending everything is gravy so as long
people believe I'm fine, it's whatever. So, I'm going to continue to
pretend I'm fine. Thnx for reading, stay FAB :)
-L.H. ♥

Fashion Discoveries

I was reading the Garance Doré's blog and got inspired. Not only am I
going 8Os Pretty in Pink/Retro I'm going ParisNights/NewYorkMornings
glamorous. I can't wait to get job and let out my true fabulousness.
This weekend I windowshopped at a couple of wicked awesome thrift
stores. My favorite was closed so we couldn't go in(Frenchie and I) but
it had a rotary phone in the window, making it my favorite thrift store
ever :]. I want to go back when it's open but it's closed on Saturdays.
Anyway, I'm going to start shopping at thrift stores and Urban
Outfitters which is very thrift store-ish(?) to me. I've decided I need
a rich boyfriend. He doesn't have to be like filthy rich, just rich
enough to buy me whatever I want and take me shopping whenever I feel
like it. It's not that I can't earn my own money, I can't wait to get a
job. But, I want to be pampered and spoiled. Well, enough for now, I
can't keep my eyes open and my throat hurts. So thnx for reading and
stay FAB! :)
-L.H.♥

Check It Out!

Alright, I know that nobody reads this but me but if you happen to stumble across this, you should know I just made a mobile blog since my computer doesn't work and I don't have a chance to get to a computer. So with mobile blogging, I can put cool pics and junk and it'll be better. Future posts will get tons better(I hope, I'm still a fail :T). But later for now. Thnx for reading and stay FAB! :)
-L.H ♥

Changing Things UP.

Alright. It's time to do some serious remodeling. I'm on my Sidekick(I'm just not a Blackberry chick.) So I can't add new pics right now(laptop still broken, no new one. I'm po') but, I will find a computer eventually and renovate this fail of a blog. I'm not only remodeling this blog, I'm remodeling my life too. As you didn't read in the last post, I'm fixing and renewing every aspect of my life. I want to fix my misery.I've decided I want to be an artist. Whether it's a photographer, director, or writer. I'm going to save up for a camera. Hopefully someone will get me the camera and a new laptop for my birthday. I also need the adaptor for my piano. There's a lot I need actually. Reinvention is pretty expensive. It's worth it. I'm sick of depression and feeling worthless. Anyway, I'm getting sleepy and I have nothing else to say. Soo thnx for reading and stay fab!
-L.H. ♥

I'M SOOO SORRY!

Omg, I feel like a deadbeat dad or something. I've let an entire month pass without updating you on my non-existent life! What's worse, I said I was just going to shower and I would come back and write more and I didn't. That's the equivalent of "I'm going out for cigs" then never coming back home. I can't promise I'll never do that again, but I'll try to post more often. Not that anyone reads this anyway :p. Alright, this is the current state of affairs:
•my band is a failure before it started.
•I lied about Wow, we're not that over(although he needs a new name)
•I'm transferring schools(no, I'll never reveal my true age/identity)
•I'm getting a job
•I'm reinventing myself*
*I'm working on the last part. I've been "reinventing myself" since about 2 years ago.
Anyway, that's all that's happened so far in my non-exsistent life. I still feel like a total failure everyday but I'm working on it. Sort of. I want to get a job at Starbucks(I'm addicted to Vivanno Smoothies!). This summer I got a job babysitting(wish me luck!). And I need a total make-over. I want to dress like a hybrid of Janelle Monae and Duckey from Pretty in Pink. My style muse right now is this ultra-fab girl I see almost every morning on the bus. I want to dress just like her. She is soo amazing. I don't know her but I wish I were her friend. I could learn sooo much from her. My wardrobe is sooo tired. I need to rejuvenate my closet something awful. So, that is my goal. September is the January of fashion and September will be the beginning of my new life. I'm going to buy a vogue, join theatre and let out my true inner FABulocity. Sooo, in honor of that, I am going to change my sign-off. Are you ready for it? Here it is: thnx for reading, stay FAB! :)
-L.H. ♥