Here we are again. I may have missed out on a great guy. But I won't know until it's too late. His phone is off which is why he didn't answer my texts. That's a little depressing, but a great relief that he isn't ignoring me. That would have definitely made me cry like a baby. I've been trying to keep my mind off of him by cyber stalking my future school. It helped a lot. Especially since some of my future classmates are quite attractive. And the events they host seem like a blast. The wheels are turning and life is happening. This is not- I repeat NOT A DRILL!!!! shit is getting real people. It's super exciting and transitional and beautiful and I have never been more happy. And scared shitless. I feel so fortunate. I feel like everything I've been waiting and hoping for is right there for me and all I have to do is take it. It's a liberating feeling. So, I'm wrestling with excitement and sadness and I hope excitement wins because sadness sucks and doesnt get you anywhere. I could sit and cry over the one who got away or I could look out for the one who will always stay. Besides, if we did decide to give each other a try, it would just be a fling because a long distance relationship is NOT something I want to be a part of. Okay, falling asleep, need rest, wish me luck!
