My, My..

Wow. I just read my very first Blog Post ever. So many things have changed since then... Crazy how that whole post was about a guy I don't even think about anymore. Since then I've been through so much and those problems are so foolish to me now. Even the way I write is different. My writing was poetic to please the audience I imagined was religiously reading my blog. Now, I just write for me. I'm more realistic and I make my own happiness instead of waiting around for someone else to make me happy. Part of that is my firm refusal to change for anyone. I've made that mistake before and I won't make it again. I've stopped trying to force things to happen also. If something is meant to happen, it will. I've changed my way of thinking and it feels good. I feel like I've freed myself from my own backwards thinking. Don't get me wrong, I still have my bouts of unexplained sadness and ridiculous confusion, but I can handle it so it doesn't last as long. I'm proud of myself. If you were me, you would be too. I recommend reading this blog from the very beginning if you want to truly understand and appreciate where I'm coming from. I know I'm not "there" yet, but I can feel myself getting closer.