I'm so upset, I could puke. It's all because of a stupid dream. OF FREAKING COURSE. I hate that my dreams control my brain so completely. I hate that my mind doesn't want to be logical. Why can't I shove my feelings down and they not bubbling back up in my freaking dreams?! I'm watching Teen Mom while I write this and Farrah's first(and Sophie's dad) dying is sooo sad! I understand why she's so angry sometimes. Omg. I wanna cry even more now. First I wanted to cry because I feel extremely lonely, then it was because I want someone I can't have, and now it's because Baby Sophie will never meet her dad and Farrah's family is so unsupportive! Amber lost so much weight. She looks GREAT! I like her a little better(I'm aware of how terrible that is). Aah! Everytime I see her status message I want to cry more. She has what I want and it's not fair. It's not the thing she has, it's the concept. I don't want exactly what she has, I want certain parts. I know if someone is reading this they're probably confused, but that's fine because I'm the only person who reads this. Everytime I see it I feel a sharp pain in my ribs, as if I've actually been stabbed. Lol, Amber is crazy as hell and Gary loves her anyway, I want that! And Tyler is so awesome and loving! Maci is a tough cookie. I love her. I'll sort out my life one of these days. I'm gonna confuse myself when I go back to read this. I didn't filter my thoughts or feelings, I let them go. I'm so emotional right now. I'm completely flustered. My bra is cutting off my circulation. My thumbs hurt from typing on this phone. The buttons are ridiculously hard. I'm gonna finish watching t.v. I started writing this at 9:09 and it's 9:53 now, CRAZY. Well, thnx for reading, stay FAB!:)
-L.H. ♥
P.S Farrah's mom seems like a total b-otch!
