Stupid Love.

Hello again, I have a lot on mind today, which is why I'm blogging like a psycho. despite the title, this isn't about a boy. No, it's about a best friend. I can't really call her much of a best friend, we don't hang out anymore, we don't even really talk. When we were true best friends, I always felt the urge to protect her. To save her from misery, to clean her wounds, and clean her boo-boos. I know it seems weird, but I did. I think it has something to do with the fact that she doesn't have a mother. Maybe somewhere in my strange brain I tried to be her mom a little so I had to save her, which is weird because I never want kids. Anyway, I love her. Me, her, and my other BFF(who I still talk to nd hng out with) were like a fearsome foursome, minus one. I love them both loads. But the motherless one, let's call her Tweety, was the flaky flighty one and whenever she would meet a boy that showed interest in her we'd lose her. I know, not much of friend, but me and my other friend, let's call her Frenchie, still loved her, still stuck by her, still supported her. Until we lost her for what seemed like the last time. I was angry at Tweety. She cut ties with us. Frenchie was upset too, but she gave up trying to save her. She figured it was a battle she would never win, she's right, how do you save a person from themselves? You can't, you can try, but only they can save themselves from themselves. Anyway, I recently saw Tweety on the bus and she was updating me on her life and I felt really bad. I immediately stopped being mad at her. She's going through so much and of course the love I have for her makes me want to protect her and cheer her up. I want to run through the streets screaming and laughing, The Fearsome Four, minus one all over again. It hurts me that we can't. So the main topic of this Bloggity blog blog is why does love HAVE to hurt so much? Why does it hve to cause happiness AND emotional distress? It's ironic that we all crave it and it ends in pain more times than not. *sigh* well, I guess I'll leave it at that for now. I'm listening to the Spice Girls(Spice Up Your life is currently playing) and this is bringing me down a bit. So, until the next time you decide to waste more of your life by taking a ride on the not so wild side.
-L.H ♥