Today I felt very depressed. I stuffed myself with leftover chicken and ice cream cones in an attempt to curb my sadness. It didn't help. After I finished eating, the sadness was still there. I don't know what to do. I just have to wait for it to pass. All I do when I'm in this mood is sleep, eat, and avoid people. I just want someone who thinks I'm beautiful inside and out. I just want to cry. My appearance hinders me. I'm not attractive. I don't have pretty hair or a perfect smile. I'm not thin. I don't have slim thighs or a flat stomach. It doesn't matter how much I long for someone to love me the same way I love them, it won't happen. My skin condition is all people see. I'm so flawed. People just pity me. A guy doesn't want a girl that everyone pities, he wants a girl that everyone likes and thinks is beautiful. Why did God make me this way? I'll never understand. I feel so sad. No one sees me as I am. They only see my skin condition. They only ugliness. This must be what I deserve.
