Sleep Deprived Rant/Random thoughts/ BrainVomit

It feels good to blog on a computer for a change(I usually blog on my phone). I'm super tired, but I really don't feel like going to sleep. I'm currently watching TeenMom and listening to VivaRadio(which I just discovered today.) Farrah got surgery, but I have no clue why. Her daughter is soooo cute. Farrah is still an unlikeable brat.. Out of all the moms, Maci is my favorite. I'm really really sleepy. I don't know why I don't want to sleep, I'm just being stubborn. My feelings for Darling aren't as intense anymore. That's pretty good. I think not hanging out with him for a whole week helped that though. I think I'm getting used to the thought of just being friends. The loser-est couple is Tyler and Catelynn, they are STEP SIBLINGS!!! Ew. They're way too young to be the way they are also. Which is another reason why I consider them to be so Loser-y. I need a new guy in my life. There's just not enough testosterone around me. I'm so tired and VivaRadio isn't helping with it's lovely relaxing music.. I really want to say that I want a boyfriend, but I feel like there's probably a very good reason that I don't have one. Maybe, even multiple reasons. I won't think about it, it'll just depress me, and I've been working very hard not to depress myself. Anyway, I might be going to the beach this weekend. I finally got some money and I'm debating on whether or not I should buy a new bathing suit. I really want a high-waisted one from American Apparel, but I have to buy a "business casual" outfit and I don't have a steady income right now... My life is so hard. I'm hoping I'll attract the attention of someone attractive at the beach. I'm also hoping that I get a freaking job. I need one so badly. If I get a job, half of my troubles will be replaced by lesser ones(or so I hope). I've decided to completely sever ties with someone. It's not a huge step, we go to school together, but I'm going to make it clear that I want nothing to do with that person. I've decided that I have no time for losers. I'm too busy being awesome. If that makes me a bitch, so be it. I already started ignoring that person(it's not hard to ignore someone you loathe) and now I'm going to kick it up a notch. I probably won't have to, they're probably going to drop out of school anyway. Pfft, I can't believe I ever associated with someone like that. Well, I'm smarter now. I'm better now. My standards are even higher. I mean, looking at him, I wonder if I even had standards. I obviously wasn't thinking clearly. I'm changing my attitude and outlook on the world. I'm going to be someone significant in this world, so why the hell would I waste my time with a nobody??? That's just ridiculous. People will know me for my greatness. They almost won't be able to handle it. So, why on earth would I be around someone who can't see that? Someone who doesn't even measure up? I don't care, I'm the shit. I'm all that and a bag of cheetos and I dare anyone to say otherwise. I'm almost positive I've said this before, but I deserve nothing less than the very best. And that's exactly what I'll get. I don't mind waiting; quality takes time. Okay, I'm done ranting and making you hate me. If you're even still reading, wow. I would've thought "this bitch has lost her fucking mind". But I assume everyone hates themselves. Speaking of "you", everyday every once in a while, I'll check out my "stats" to see if someone actually reads this shit. Turns out, people are reading viewing(Idk if you're actually reading) this. I know most of my views are either accidental or a result of the "next blog" button, but I still think it's pretty cool that people in France and the U.K have stumbled across my Brain Vomit. If you do actually take the time to read, thank you....and fuck you for not giving me advice. Just kidding, just kidding, I know my situations are impossible. And I know I'm not very likable so why would you want to help me? And if you are reading, you wouldn't want to help me solve my problems, if I were  problem-free why would I write? Then, what would you read? I would suggest a newspaper, but then I wouldn't get those ego-boosting views :)