Hurt... it was a matter of time.

I've been depressed, in a funk, blah, whatever, for literally five days. I hate everything and everyone, I'm dissapointed in life, I have no motivation, I'm sleepy, I'm irritable. I feel so abandoned and neglected. It finally happened. I've seen his fatal flaw. I feel used or something. I'm confused because I don't know what happened but I don't know how to fix it. When something like this happens I just feel worthless. Like it's impossible for anyone. To see me for who I am. Why can't anything ever just fall into place for me? I don't win things. Ever. I don't get chosen. I'm disposable. It's been proven. People forget about me as quickly as they meet me. God forbid I get up to use the bathroom, someone will be in my seat and providing much more stimulating conversation by the time I get back. What's wrong with me? What's so bad about me? It makes me want to give up. Screw everything.