Today(Just because I can't think of a better title)

Today was a lot of fun. I hung out with Darling all day. It was great. We walked practically half of Manhattan and discovered the coolest place ever. I laughed so much. It was really enjoyable. He's a great friend. It's crazy because last night I had a HORRIBLE dream and we were arguing. I'm not totally sure, because I don't all the way remember,(*funfact* dreams begin to diminish as soon as you wake up) but I'm pretty sure we were fighting because I'm unhappy with our relationship status. Well, his relationship status, I wouldn't be unhappy if I had a relationship with a status. I wish there was something about him that I disliked enough to stop thinking this way. Unfortunately, the thing I hate most about him is his girlfriend. I wish she were imaginary. I need to stop. I'm fine with the way things are. I keep telling myself that, but I'm lying to myself. I know that I'm not fine with this. I mean, when we're hanging out, it feels more than friendship, then he mentions his girlfriend and I'm brought back to reality. Reality sucks. The whole day we hung out I was wishing that we were going to go back to our apartment and I would make us something to eat and we'd relax and talk about the day. I feel too strong a connection to him for this to end when our internship does. There's just no way. This is like my third post talking about him, which was not my intention at all. Anyway, I had a lot of fun. It was great that place we discovered(called Limelight) is the coolest place I've ever been. That's all for now, super tired and Bruce Lee movies are on, hopefully tonight's dream(s) is better than last night.