Come here, stay with me. Take me by the hand. Cause I would do anything, anything to have you as my man
That's one of my favorite lines from the song Little Bit by Lykke Li. I love that song. It describes how I would feel if I ever fell in love I think. Another one of my favorite lines from the song is: Hands down, I'm too proud for love. But with eyes shut, it's you I'm thinking of... It's a really good song. Okay, so yesterday I went to Six Flags and once again, weird things happened that cause these feelings to come back and confuse me. Eh, it wasn't a huge deal, but I'm thinking about it. So, I'm not going to go ahead and say that I like PS again, but we had a bit of a tender moment on the ride back from Six Flags. I mean, I felt closer to him than Darling. Only for a little while. He asked me if I went out with Darling. I should've asked him why he wanted to know. He let me lay on him on the bus ride. His shoulder was too hard so I rested on his chest. I couldn't hear his heartbeat, but I could feel his breath leaving and re-entering his chest. It was nice. But of course, he was texting another girl. It's like I'm cursed or something. I wish I knew what I did to deserve this and how to fix it. I don't understand. Who's punishing me and why? I can't wait to know why I go through these things. He touched my face and pet my hair. His hair is soft and curly. It was nice. There was tiny moment there. It brought me back to when I thought I liked him. It's never the guy I'm attracted to, it's the thought of being in a relationship. I hate that. I have hope that this wpnt last forever. Eventually, things will fall into place. I look to the future because I know it's brighter than I can even imagine.
