So it must take me twice as long since I'm half hispanic xp...
Yes, there's someone new. Don't get me wrong, I totally love the guy I was talking about in the last post(let's call him Darling). He's a great friend and blah blah blah.. But there's another guy now. He's amazing. I'll just call him PS[don't question it]. I can't pinpoint exactly what it is.. It's how he makes me laugh, how he looks at me, he's smart. Ugh. I hate liking people. I know that sound weird but it makes me feel extremely vulnerable. To me, when you admit you think you might have feelings for someone, you might as well prepare yourself to get hurt. I know it's very defeatist of me(as BFKAW would say *THROWBACK ALERT!!!*), but I can't help it. Decidedly, I haven't been hurt THAT many times, but it's enough to make me feel the way I do about relationships. Well, back to PS. I'll admit, he's not as cute, outgoing, or charming as Darling but I think that's part of what I like about him. He has that humor that I like. I'm attracted to his mind.. uh oh, deja vú.. I remember saying the same thing about BFKAW... but he's different... right? Only time will tell. Or maybe it won't. I'm a chicken as you may know and I'm sure nothing will come of this.[OMG sidenote: this post is taking me THREE DAYS to write!! Because stupid Blogger decided to shut down. Blugh. I don't even remember what I was thinking when I started this stupid thing. I guess I'll just start over :T] So Darling said that he thinks PS likes me or another girl. But his reasons aren't concrete enough for me to get excited. He could have a girlfriend for all I know. I do like to imagine what it would be like if we went out. Idk. I can't imagine how I look with anyone, but that's because I think I'm ugly. I could imagine him saying nice things to me. Omg, that reminds me, he said something that deserves its own post. So I'm ending this fail of a post so that I can properly archive that moment.
[Oh no, is it bad luck to blog about a boy on Friday the 13th?!?! This is all Google's fault...]
