I started this post in September, but Blogger sucks so I wasn't able to finish it. It's not as long as I originally intended, but I wanted to post it anyway.
Today started off super crappy, got even worse, then got a little better. In the end I'm left with slight discomfort in my stomach, a really cute new jacket that looks like it once belonged to my imaginary boyfriend, and the most awesome(and expensive) pair of boots I've ever bought. I feel way more prepared for school now. Well, not really. I STILL didn't finish my summer homework and I'm not even half way done. Ugh. I'm a horrible student. I really hope I have some hidden talent because at this point, my laziness and procrastination mixed with my desire for new and luxurious things to fill this void is poised to be my downfall. In other news, the middle of my back hurts reeeallly bad. My mom said it's my muscle. I'd like to know how the hell pain could have gotten there. It started this morning so I figured maybe I slept in an awkward position and that caused a strain in my back. But how freaking awkward can I position myself in my sleep?? I sleep in a full size bed and I'm not like ridiculously huge, so how the heck did I injure myself?? Most likely, it will remain a mystery. I just hope it doesn't last long and I don't go through it again. I have a feeling that my Senior Year won't be that great. I mean, I can only force it so much. Idk, I'm excited that it's almost over and get to finally call myself a senior, but I wish I had spent all four years in one school and I had more memories and stuff to look back on. I guess the way I did things made me stronger in the end and helped me to learn more and save me from community college, but I still long to be able to say "remember freshman year when we..." I also feel little connection to my new "friends" most of the time I'm faking it. I know it's bad for my mental health, but it's the only way i know how to survive High school.
