And It All Falls Down...

It finally hit me. He has a girlfriend, who he's committed to, who exists, and he really likes her. No, I didn't finally meet her. No, I haven't seen a picture. All it took was Darling, my very good FRIEND to talk about her so lovingly and sincerely. I have no choice but to accept the fact that he's my FRIEND. I really am over it(until the next time I say I'm not). After seeing some very hot guys at the beach, I realized that I can't imagine myself being in a relationship with anyone. I think it's because I don't think I'm attractive. However, I do think that I eventually will become more attractive. I have hope that I'll turn into a swan anyone can go from Ugly Duckling to Swan with the right amount of money. Its just the way the world turns. Once I can afford nice make-up,to dress better, good skin care products and to get my hair done, then, maybe I'll be noticed. For now, I just have to wait. I think I could be okay with that. I mean, I don't have a choice, now do I?(as of now, no)