Lucky Me!

I don't think I've ever felt so fortunate as I do now. Things are just falling into place. I've stayed with my grandparents the past couple of days. I need a break from the negative energy in my house. I feel really lucky to have a place to escape to. I can take a break from the chaos. Yesterday I went to see Cirque Du Soleil. I've been wanting to see it for the LONGEST and finally got the opportunity to see it. Awesome opportunities seem to just fall in my lap and I make sure to take full advantage of them. I'm sooo psyched about all the cool things happening in my life right now. I auditioned for a musical theater class, I'm eligible for a full scholarship to college, and I'm going to be performing on Monday. Screw that depressed crap, I'm doing things by myself for myself. I can do anything I set my mind to and I don't need anyone to validate me. With all the positive things, there's always going to be setbacks. Like I said, there's a lot of negative energy in my house. Plus, I have these random bouts of sadness. I'm starting to feel hopeless and insecure about my appearance again. I've been shaking it off though. I've also been getting really sick. I may have mentioned my frequent headaches in a past post. One day in class, I suddenly got super dizzy and nauseous out of nowhere. Hopefully, my appointment with the neurologist will shed some light on what could be going on. So, at the moment, I feel pretty good. And this time, it's all my fault :)