Just Cause It's Been A While...

Sleeping on the couch.. I find it to be more comfortable than my bed sometimes.. I like to pretend that I'm just visiting, that tomorrow I'll go home to my awesome lofty apartment/studio above an old warehouse in the Garment District, paid for by my older, foxy gentlemen friend who also happens to be my "financier". Yeah, I don't know where I get these things either.. Anyway, life is whatever right now, the end of Spring Break is approaching too quickly and is very near crashing into me harder than a head on collision...in other words, no, I have'nt done any homework. Bleh. Today was the blah-est. I stayed home all day for no real reason other than possible discomfort. I freaked out about the fact that I haven't started my homework, however, made no effort to do it. I created a Tumblr account. I know, I know, tré cliché but I should really start whoring myself promoting my photographic "talents". I would give the link to it, but that would mean revealing my identity, which is just too embarrassing to even consider. In other "news" there's a new person in my life. He's not really all that new actually, he's from my not-so-distant past and I'm actually texting him right now. He's improving my mood and distracting me from my blogging. He's someone who's very good at getting his way with girls and being sweet as poundcake definetely helps his cause. I don't even remember where I was going with this.. I sense danger afoot...nothing EVER comes from me falling in like(or lust for that matter) with charming guys. EVER. And don't let me start thinking nice thoughts. They always end up badly. Me liking anyone period has only ever ended badly. I don't know why I even leave my house honestly. Bleh, I'm such a downer. I'm only like this when I'm alone with my thoughts.. I'm never this gloomy when there are other people around. Whatever, changing the subject: I think there's something wrong with my brain, literally.( I know, not much more cheery, but hey, it is what it is) I've been getting these random sharp pains above my left eye, my memory is getting so bad that I forget what I'm talking about midsentence, I feel unfocused and disorganized, and I randomly get nauseous. These are things that don't happen on a regular basis so I don't think about them very often, but I think I should seek professional help. Maybe. Most likely, there's nothing wrong with me. Going to bed...or, couch.. whatever.