I know, big shocker. More emotions, another situation. Of course it's about a guy. I shouldn't be confused at all. I'm being stupid right now. I'm totally overthinking this. I'll just come out with it. I'm crushing. I know, I know. It's extremely stupid to be thinking about any type of male anything after all I've been through. But I am. I've just come to terms with it. Right when I'm leaving school forever and I'll never see him again. That's actually really good. Now I'll never do something absolutely stupid because of my feelings for him. *sigh* He's not cute. That's what makes it so much more meaningful. I like him for him. He's totally not my type in any way. I'm attracted to who he is. Well, I was attracted to BFKAW's personality too and look where that got me. Ugh. Anyway, it's too late now, like I said. I'm transferring to another school and I'll probably never see him again. If we had become as close as we are now months ago maybe things would be different. This wouldn't feel so final. But it is. I'm sure he doesn't like me back anyway. He probably likes a girl who's short, skinny, with flowing hair that reaches her waist. I just don't fit that description. I love how close we get. Literally I mean. Sometimes we stand next to eachother and we're barely touching but my skin tingles anyway. Ugh. I sound stupid. I'm positive he doesn't feel the same way. And we're never gonna see each other again! Why can't I be rational for 5 seconds?? I refuse be depressed about this. I enjoyed the time we spent in the class we had together and I'll have fond memories of that, but now that's over and it's time to move on. Don't you just love how mature I'm being about this whole thing? Yep, that's me, Little Miss Mature, Madame Beyond Her Age, Lady Old Soul. It's not easy being so level, trust me. Especially when you're emotional, irrational me. I guess I really have nothing to be confused about. I guess what I should be is relieved. Relieved that I didn't have to face heartbreak. Relieved that my brain won't be fried thinking about a stupid boy. Relieved that I'll be sort of sane for a little while longer. -Phew- Dodged a bullet there...right? aah! Well, Thnx for reading, stay FAB!:)
-L.H. ♥
